The Description Fits Me

THE LUCID SEEKER

Beauty and the Beast. This subject is a veritable storm of contradiction. Every detail must be perfect, every line straight and every flaw concealed. Weakness must be routed. Sloth eradicated. Yet, under this foil of faultlessness, Libra/Ox hides a secret. On the strict surface, Libra/Ox is efficiency and power, example and security. Underneath? An anthill of conflicting emotions. Purity charms this sterling character. He claims not to want any messes about. He protests he needs calm and cannot live in turmoil, Yet, Libra/Oxen are forever getting themselves involved in emotional scrapes. Even though they seem to be above it all, they take in strays. They seek out madness. They are magnetized by complexity. The love life of Librans born in Ox year roil with complications. Nothing is simple - even in the bedroom where arcane tactics and multiple fantasies abound.

— The New Astrology by Suzanne White

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Time to Grow Up and to Love Again

It's time to face the monsters underneath my bed. It's time to face the reality that I'm not anymore a child but a grown up that needs to learn to stand on his own feet and strive to get what he wants and needs for his life.

For the longest time, it has been always an excuse for me that I'm still young, I can still be restless and not be responsible on my actions and decisions in life. It has been always an excuse for me that in God's time, I'll reach the point of maturity and let me be immature as of the moment. It has been full of excuses and I've been numbed by my stubbornness to embrace reality's hurtful truth that I'm not longer young.

I’ve Been Thinking About You

When you read these words,

chances are that I’ll be sitting here

thinking of you…

as I so often do.

I’ll probably be smiling

one of the smiles that I always do

when thoughts of you come my way.

Nakakalito?!

Bakit nakakalito? Bakit ganito ang pakiramdam ko? Bakit parang hindi pa rin ako masaya? Bakit lahat ng mga bagay na pilit kong iniiwasan kusang bumabalik para gumulo ulit ang buhay ko?

Smallville...

This is Chloe's confession of her true feelings to Clark as he lays unconscious.

iPod Touch Second Generation

Hayyy... Whining Thoughts Again...

For the past few months, I've been complaining alot-complaining about my work, my sister, my life, and almost everything. I've been thinking alot and been bothered alot of these thoughts. Thinking what if I've done this I could have been like this or it could have turned out better.

Kids Before and Now

Just read this email. I was amazed how true are the points given on this one. Just read this and place a comment on how true or not true you think this one is.

TO ALL THE KIDS WHO WERE BORN IN THE 1950s, 60s, 70s and early 80s !!


First, some of us survived being born to mothers who did not have an OB-Gyne and drank San Miguel Beer while they carried us.
While pregnant, they took cold or cough medicine, ate isaw, and didn't worry about hepa.

Then after all that trauma, our baby cribs were made of hard wood covered with lead-based paints, pati na yung walker natin, matigas na kahoy din at wala pang gulong.

We had no soft cushy cribs that play music, no disposable diapers (lampin lang) and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, no kneepads , sometimes wala pang preno yung bisikleta.

As children, we would ride in hot un-airconditioned buses with wooden seats (yung JD bus na pula) or cars with no airconditioning & no seat belts (ngayon lahat may aircon na)

Riding on the back of a carabao on a breezy summer day was considered a treat. (ngayon hindi na nakakakita ng kalabaw ang mga bata)

We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle purchased from 711 (minsan straight from the faucet or poso)

We shared one soft drink bottle with four of your friends, and NO ONE actually died from this. Or contracted any disease.

We ate rice with star margarine, drank raw eggs straight from the shell and drank softdrinks with real sugar in it (hindi diet coke or coke zero), but we weren't sick or overweight kasi nga......

WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING!!

We would leave home in the morning and play all day, and get back when the streetlights came on. Sarap mag patintero, tumbang preso, habulan at taguan.

No one was able to reach us all day (di uso ang cellphone, walang beepers). And yes, we were OK.

We would spend hours building our wooden trolleys

(yung bearing ang gulong) or plywood slides out of scraps and then ride down the street, only to find out we forgot the brakes! After hitting the sidewalk or falling into a canal (sewage channel) a few times, we learned to solve the problem ourselves with our bare & dirty hands .

We did not have Playstations, Nintendos,

X-boxes, no video games at all, no 100 channels on cable, no DVD movies, no surround stereo, no IPODs, no cellphones, no computers, no Internet, no chat rooms and no Friendsters or virtual friends. ...... ...WE HAD REAL FRIENDS and we went outside to actually talk and play with them!

We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no stupid lawsuits from these accidents. The only rubbing we get is from our friends with the words...masakit ba? pero pag galit yung kalaro mo, ang sasabihin sa iyo..beh buti nga !

We played marbles (jolens) in the dirt, washed our hands just a little and ate dirty ice cream & fish balls. we were not afraid of getting germs in our stomachs.

We had to live with homemade guns" gawa sa kahoy, tinali ng rubberband, sumpit, tirador at kung anu-ano pa na puedeng makasakitan. pero masaya pa rin ang lahat.

We made up games with sticks ( syatong ), and cans ( tumbang preso) and although we were told they were dangerous, wala naman tayong binulag o napatay.paminsan minsan may nabubukulan lang.

We walked, rode bikes, or took tricycles to a friend's house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just yelled for them to jump out the window!

Mini basketball teams had tryouts and not everyone made the team. Those who didn't pass had to learn to deal with the disappointment. Wala yang mga childhood depression at damaged self esteem ek-ek na yan. Ang pikon, talo.

Ang magulang ay nandoon lang para tignan kung ayos lang ang mga bata, hindi para makialam at makipag-away sa ibang parents.

That generation of ours has produced some of the best risk-takers, problem solvers, creative thinkers and successful professionals ever! They are the CEOs, Engineers, Doctors and Military Generals of today.

The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.

We had failure, success and responsibility. We learned from our mistakes the hard way.

You might want to share this with others who've had the luck to grow up as real kids. We were lucky indeed.

And if you like, forward it to your kids too, so they will know how brave their parents were.

It kind of make you wanna go out and climb a tree, doesn't it?!

Happy Birthday!

It has been a long time since I really celebrated my dearly departed mother's birthday. I filed for a leave in advance for this day. It's her 56th birthday.

This is a day to commemorate her undying passion for motherhood. For those who don't know, my mom died when I was in Junior High School (it was February 2001 to be exact). It has always been like yesterday that I last saw her. I really miss her. When she left me, I hugged her tight thinking that this is the last chance to feel her warmth and to see her face.

I guess when shit happens the only thing you can do is to move forward and just keep the memories to yourself and remember the things that were. I hope she's happy wherever she is because I am. I finally fulfilled her dreams for me to finish and find a decent job. I know I am still a work in progress but eventually I'll reach my goal.

Going back to the celebration, I had a hard time thinking what to have for her birthday. They told me to have at least something that she would really like. I remembered she like cakes. Since it was raining, I just ordered a regular chocolate cake in Red Ribbon for delivery. It's good they offer such service already. Aside from the cake, I called Pizza Hut to deliver a Cheesy Pops 'N Dip Feast 2. We enjoyed the food and everything. We sang Happy Birthday just rejoicing for the day that she was born. I am so thankful that she is my mom and I hope that I did not fail her as a son.

Happy Birthday to the Greatest Mom!

My Mom's Birthday Cake


The entire meal....

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LPENHS Batch 2002 Yahoo Group

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This will be the official yahoo group of our batch. I hope that we can always keep in touch through this means.

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Clueless

Here I am thinking right now if what will happen to me in the next upcoming months. I'm feeling a bit unease right now. I don't know why but that's what I feel. My heart is beating fast and there is a gush of emotions pumping in my vein that just wants out.

I cannot express it. That's my issue. I can't really tell what I'm feeling right now. Most of the time I just keep it inside. I leave it boiling inside until the time comes that I cannot contain the emotion and boom I'll breakdown.

Balancing everything in your hand is hard. A lot of obligations that you can't just ignore and let it pass by. I don't know what to expect or should I even expect on something to happen. I really cannot manage everything on my life alone. Sometimes I just wonder why do I have these many responsibilities. Is it a bit too early for me? I thought at my age of 22, I should be enjoying my young adult life. I should be exploring the things that the world can offer. I know responsibilities makes you mature and gives you perspective on what you should do but damn I feel more lost than ever.

Sometimes I'm left wondering at the end of the day: Will anyone care for me? Will anyone stay besides me when everything is lost? Will there be a shoulder that I can lean on when I feel I'm down? Will there be someone to help me share the load of burden I feel deep down inside myself?

I've been struggling ever since I was young. I think it was destined to be that way. I was not placed in picture-perfect life. Everyday it has been a struggle. I grew up thinking I was not given choices but duties that I need and must do. Maybe that's the right thing to happen to give me direction. But again I'm just clueless.

Tomorrow may not be the same as what I have today. We are here wondering but still clueless of what will be tomorrow's life brings us.

This concludes another post. 'Till the next post.

Nothing New...

Same old, same old. Nothing new about what's happening everyday in the floor. The queue has not changed and it's still tiring.

I don't know what happened to our account but it seems that for the past few months we can feel the stress and we are burdened too much of what we're doing everyday. Several changes but few improvements. We are going down.

I felt that this was my longest one week ever. It's not because there's no VGH but because of how I feel during each of my shift. We lack motivation and I feel we're like robots controlled and managed by someone that we cannot see. It seems that they don't care if the agents are down to there knees because of fatigue. I hope the management knows these things. I know that it's important to please the client but it's more important to have happy frontliners. It'll be a win-win situation if it's like that.

The management seems to be distant during these days. We felt we're left in the dark just groping on what's really the deal in our account. There are a lot of gossips and hearsays spreading in all four corners of the floor. No definite truth yet on those things but it seems legitimate on the scenarios seen there.

I need a breather. We need all a breather. We are drowning from these shit hole that we are in. It will be fine I know as long as they take good care of the frontliners. They should know that. It's up to us to uplift the account's dropping scene but for us to do that we need to know that there are people to back-up us. People that will support us and not push out to our death.

Goodluck to us all. If this trend continues, and I hope not, I'll bid goodbye to this work that I did love. I'll weigh my options and maybe transfer to greener pasture.

Multiple Intelligence - MyPersonality.info Badge

Intrapersonal Intelligence

People with intrapersonal intelligence are adept at looking inward and figuring out their own feelings, motivations and goals. They are introspective and seek understanding. They are intuitive and typically introverted. They learn best independently.

Interpersonal Intelligence

People with Interpersonal intelligence are good with people and thrive in social interactions. They are good at reading, empathize and understanding others. They are good at working with others and have many friends. They learn best through interaction and dialogue.

Verbal/Linguistic Intelligence

People with Linguistic intelligence love and are talented with words. They enjoy reading, writing and learning languages. They have an ability to teach and explain things to others. They learn best by reading, taking notes and going to lectures.

Naturalist Intelligence

The Naturalist intelligence has to do with how we relate to our surroundings and where we fit into it. People with Naturalist intelligence have a sensitivity to and appreciation for nature. They are gifted at nurturing and growing things as well as the ability to care for and interact with animals. They can easily distinguish patterns in nature.

Note that this intelligence is the newest added to the theory of Multiple Intelligences and is often criticized as being an interest rather than an intelligence.

Visual/Spatial Intelligence

People with Visual intelligence are artistic. They are very aware of their surroundings and are good at remembering images. They have a great sense of direction. They like to draw, paint and read maps. They learn best through drawings and visual aids.

Logical Mathematical Intelligence

People with Logical intelligence are abstract thinkers and are attracted to logic and reasoning. They are good at investigation and scientific processes. They learn best by logic.

Bodily/Kinesthetic Intelligence

People with Kinesthetic intelligence love movement. They enjoy sports and/or dance. They are good at building things and like to stay active. They have good motor skills and are very aware of their bodies. They learn best through movement and experimentation.

Musical Intelligence

People with musical intelligence love music. They appreciate rhythm and composition. They are gifted with the ability to compose, sing and/or play instrument(s). Able to recognize sounds, tones and rhythm, they have a "good ear" for music. They learn best through lectures and often use rhythm and music as a way to memorize things.

Personality Type - MyPersonality.info Badge

ENFJ - The "Mentor"

Jung/Myers/Briggs Personality Types (Free Test)

ENFJs are externally focused, introspective, altruistic, positive and have excellent people skills. They place utmost importance on helping others grow. They are warm and have a natural desire to be supportive and encouraging. Being charismatic and posessing excellent language skills, they do well in leadership roles. ENFJs strive to enhance the lives of their human brethren.

It's Doomsday!

Toxic! This seems that we will never recover from this endless calls waiting.

Another day of complete shift due to failing service level because of extreme number of calls waiting. There were no common issues aside from the ZoneAlarm and Microsoft update problem which is like about a percent of the entire call volume in the floor.

Fluctuating number of incoming calls to the center and few agents staffed caused our service level to fail. There were times that it had 55 calls waiting within a span of 10-15 minutes. Towards the middle of my shift, I felt extremely exhausted. The calls were too much. I just prayed that it would be 11:30 pm so I can take my lunch. After my lunch, I just looked at my computer's time and prayed that it'll be already 3am so that I can go home.

Kudos to our MOD because at last they reskilled CHD agents to HN. We were happy to know that they can reskill now CHD. They told us that they cannot do that before because HN has a higher sets of skill and CHD does not therefore they cannot put CHD to a higher skill level. Now we know that it was just a bluff and we knew that even before. We are all HN trained.

Another sad thing is that my VL for the 15th was not approved. I really need a break at least once a month. I need to recuperate and recharge from the stressful environment we have. The situation in our floor is intense. We are like robots now operated by super humans to please them and be their guinea pigs.

This ends my post. 'Till the next post.

Wednesday: A Day to Reckon With

It is my Wednesday shift. I had a complete shift plus overtime for 7 minutes. Another day that was queuing and there were no VGH of course. I think we failed our service level because our MOD requested extension of shift for an hour.

I'm very sleepy at this moment. What I want to do is to extend my sleep time. I only had 5 hours of sleep since my log-out time at 3am. Why? I attended a celebration for the promotion of my two teammates/friends—Marizen Misolas and Reginald Madrid. Kudos for both in doing a good job and on climbing the ladder of success.

Today, I'll go to work with not enough sleep and I just hope that it will not be another crazy day for me. 'Till the next post.

Tuesday Funday

It's the start of my shift. This means I'll spend the next 5 days at work and in my bed.

Not enough sleep and I feel so tired. I really did not want to go to work. It's like going to school after a long vacation. I just want to lay down in bed and sleep or go in front of my computer and surf the net just anything aside from going to work and sitting down to my usual place and take-in calls. Sometimes it just creeps upon me. The calls can really get tiring. It seems to be routinary if almost everyday you're doing this.

My flare for the moment to keep me on pushing myself to go to work is my sister's education and my dreams. This is really corny but it is what just keeps me to strive and work harder. I'm helping my sister finish her school. She's already in college and I'm supporting her financial needs for school. When I started working in this company, I started helping her already. I know I'm not as a good provider as what she thinks but I'm really doing my best to give her all she needs. I hope she notices that.

Enough of mushy stuff! A good thing that happened to me today is VGH. There was VGH after several days without it. The greatest thing about it is I was able to go. At last it was a success. I was relieved from the never ending calls.

So far, based on our MTD Dashboard, I'm still passing. I really need to work hard to get a better quarterly bonus. Do they think they can let me down? My aim is to get all 4's for the next 3 months in my scorecard (coz aiming for a 5 is insane). I'm excited to get my 2nd quarterly bonus this August 5. I hope it's big.

I'm looking forward to this. I'll inform you guys but for now this ends my post. 'Till the next post.

UAAP Season 71

Here we go again. It's the time of the year where the best of the best get together and compete. UAAP Season '71 is now officially open.

I'm a full pledged UE Red Warrior fan. Let the game begin and let's see how far can the Warriors go. I'm hoping that they'll get the championship this time. But whatever happens, I'll still stick to my school's pride.

Animo UE!

GO FIGHT RED AND WHITE! GO FIGHT RED AND WHITE! GO FIGHT RED AND WHITE! EAST! EAST!

Addiction...

Yehey! I've finally done it. I've managed to create an account on different social networking sites. I have now an account in Facebook, Multiply, and Friendster. I also added another blog account in LiveJournal.com. This officially makes me an addict to social networking and blogging.

I really don't know what will I do with this number of accounts. But as they say, the more the merrier. This is an opportunity to reach all my friends using these different sites.

Now guys if your reading this and you want to check them out, I'll post all of my links below.

• MySpace : http://www.myspace.com/jmnaman
• Friendster: http://profiles.friendster.com/jmnaman
• Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/profile.php?id=672373209
• Multiply: http://jmlifeasitis.multiply.com
• LiveJournal: http://jmnaman.livejournal.com/

Rating them all. I love MySpace the most. I think it's because of the user-friendliness environment it has. It's organize and it's more intuitive compared to the rest. I love all these sites because of the blog features they have. This is a must that I'm looking for these type of websites. Aside from reaching out to my friends, I have also an online diary through the blog features.

Just add me up ok. I want to see you guys on my contacts or list of friends. 'Till the next post.

Curacha

Another complete shift. Tiring as usual but at least this is my last day. Welcome rest day or should I say sleepless Sunday!

It was a promising day for my shift. Not as tiring as it used to be but, unluckily, still no VGH. What the heck! Complete shift means more money. More money means more savings. More savings means I can buy what I want on Christmas or whenever it's enough for me to buy what I want.

Why did I say it'll be a sleepless Sunday? Our team had a plan to have a team building/bonding activity in San Mateo today. A despedida party for Carrie as well. It was intended to be an overnight event. Due to unexpected circumstances, a last minute change of decision was needed; I cannot go.

After shift, we ate at Pancake House. This was a pre-celebration of Van's birthday this coming Monday. She treated us breakfast and it was awesome. She was given a scoop of ice cream and it had a note of Happy Birthday! It was so nice of Pancake's to do so.

My aunt from the US came back in the Philippines after 21 years for vacation. Since she's a balik-bayan and she misses a lot of things that's only here in the Philippines, they always plan to visit different places near the metro. Since it was her last day here in Metro Manila before she goes to Iloilo, they went ahead and planned that they will be going to Tagaytay today. Now, I'm torn between my team and family obligations. Which one should I prioritize? Family or team? Of course, as they always say: blood is thicker than water, family comes first.

I told my teammates about it and said that I'll just follow after the trip. So here we went to Tagaytay, I thought it will be cold since it's somehow on an elevated area but I guess because it was mid-afternoon when reach the place, it was darn hot! My sweat is dripping like an open faucet. I did enjoy it generally. We visited a convent and strolled in their garden. It was cool. The scenery was awesome. Never ending picture-taking on every spot that captures our eyes.

After that, we ate in RSM. It was fabulous. The food was extremely mouth-watering and overwhelmingly satisfying. Actually, we weren't able to finish all the food because it was too much for our stomach to handle. The restaurant was also situated near Taal Lake and you can see an overview of the Taal Volcano. You will be captivated in the beauty of the scenery. The breeze was refreshing. You'll be flabbergasted and you'll just hold your breath with how charming a volcano can be.

And last in our itinerary, Palace in the Sky or the People's Park. It was first time there. It was an old ruin. A building that was conceptualized but never finished. I was just looking at it and picturing how it could have looked like if it was ever built. I did not so much enjoy going there. It was just plain and you can't do much if you go there. We ended up staying just for 30 minutes and then we left. Most of the time what did was just sat down and rest.

We headed home and took the never-ending traffic jam in EDSA. It's an opportunity to do what was taken out from me , sleep. It was my first actual sleep for the day. It was amazing. I was energized.

Due to this trip, I was not able to follow our team bonding activity. We returned damn too late for me to follow them at San Mateo. I'm worried if I'll follow I might get lost or something worse may happen. I just informed Dulce about it and they said that they understood and it was fine. They told me as well that there will be another party next Sunday and it'll be held at Carrie's place. Looking forward to this.

This ends my post for this day. 'Till the next post.

Fourth of July Dilemma

As what was predicted, it will be avail all throughout the shift...NOT!!! As usual, like PAG-ASA doing their weather forecast, it was wrong. The forecast of low call volume was not as it was expected. We had several calls waiting from 8pm until forever.

Total abomination! It was extremely exhausting. No VGH! This is the worst thing to happen. Why? Why do we need to suffer?!

Nonetheless, no VGH means more money. In a way I'm also thankful to that. The only thing I'm mainly complaining about is just that it was freakishly queuing. That's how it really is in a call center. A lot of drastic changes, what's now is not really what you'll have tomorrow.

Que sera sera! I always think that everything and every event in our life has a purpose and whatever it is, that will be for the better. Adja! We can do this.

Another Day...

What's happening!?

Everyday it seems that it's getting tougher. What the hell happened to our queue?! It should be avail because it'll be the 4th of July. Damn, it has been queuing since 8pm until 12am. We were surprised because we were told as well that we have a low call volume. What the heck happened with that low call volume. Is it all of sudden customers realize that it'll be a holiday and they need to call us because we'll be close by then? I hope not! As what I always say to our customer, "You can always give us a call anytime that you need assistance. We are open 24/7 ready to assist you." Note to those customer's that does not listen, 24/7 means that we give service 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

Due to this unexpected incident, I went on VGH earlier than what I should have. My VGH was 12:57am. This is not good for my pay. I really need to do better next time. I should have taken my break then went on VGH. That should have let me earn more money. But never mind, I've already done it. Lesson learned and I'll just do that next time.

In addition to the crazy queue is our new template. It's adding up to my ACW which means longer AHT. They said this is to quantify the compliance of the agents to process flow. But, compliance to the process is not part of our metrics. What's part of it is AHT. Sacrifices should be made for this. It'll either be, longer AHT but better compliance or shorter AHT but not compliant to the process.

Later, it'll be the Fourth of July. Fifty six agents were given split off due to expected low call volume. Again, I hope that they've not judged wrongly on this. We expect that it'll not be queuing but then again to experience is to know. I'll just inform you guys what happened. 'Till next post.

Super Duper Stressful

Another day has passed. And this is even worse than yesterday. Calls came pouring in as early as 6:30pm which usually would be around 7pm. Since then and before I've taken my lunch at around 11:30pm, no ending calls. No avail and several calls waiting. This was a crisis. This could not be for a Wednesday shift. Is it because they are already preparing for the 4th of July? I hope so.

The only thing that can save me is nothing else but VGH. Alas! It was offered around 1:25am. Unfortunately, I was in a call and not even close at ending that call by that time. What will I do then?! Of course, desperate times needs desperate measures, what I've done is placed my customer on hold. I told her that I need to prepare some tools and will be back after 3 minutes (since there is a 3 minutes threshold for holds) and then call the MOD (manager-on-duty). Luckily, I was able to get in touch with her and got a slot. She even told me that I was bad because I've placed my customer on hold just for this. That's how life is.

Aside from the usual, we are the pilot team of a project to standardize note taking and also to measure our compliance with the process flow. I'm really not sure how will it go but for sure this has a lot of loop holes. What will make this successful if all agents have integrity. I'm not saying we don't but then if we want our clients to get good results then we could just cheat. In line with that, I need to change my template for my note taking and add additional info for every call. I hope this will not affect my AHT in general.

'Till the next post.

First Day Funk

Tiring! Queuing! Reskilling! Short avail time! The usual day for my shift. After four days of rest, here I am again, I need to face the never ending queue of customers that needs help getting online.

Today, I got long calls and weird issues and of course weirder customers. Sorry, but I cannot go into details about them. This is to protect their reputation as a human being. Let them believe that they are smart and more dominant than us.

As usual, I went on VGH around 1:40 am. We ate in Mcdonald's Philcoa, chat and gave opinions on what's happening to our account. What's consistentl, though it's no surprise, we share the same sentiments. We also shared our unsual experiences in our calls. This is relaxing. I'm given a breather to at least unload all the stress after my work.

Another day has ended. Please wait for my next post.

A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover

A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover Lyrics

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Happiness all over...

Today, I've seen how much was my salary for this cut-off and to my surprise it was big! I could not imagine how much it really is if I'd not gone on VGH. But what the heck, it's more than enough for me.

Because of this, I was able to purchase a new pair of shoe in Leaveland. We (me and my cousin) ate in Greenwich and had a take-out of a family size 7 Meats and Cheeses Overloaded pizza. I also bought 10 pieces of doughnut for my young cousins in Riverside. Though, I was not able to watch the movie Wanted but there is always next time, right?! I've already given Tet and Reggie my share for the house rent, food budget and payment for our bills and enough to spare for my savings.

I can't wait until the next pay day comes. Slow but surely, I'll earn enough money to buy myself a new 8G Ipod Touch for my birthday. Just three more months 'till that day and hopefully I can have that. Just inform you if I was able to get it.

Waiting for Pay Day

At last! This is the day I've been waiting for. This is the 3oth which means I'll get my salary. But the question is: how much will it be?

I have 17-20 hrs worth of VGH or unpaid hours for this cut-off. I wish what's left be enough to pay all my bills. During the 30th, I need to pay my rent, bills for electricity and water, allowance for myself and my sister, etc. Again it will just pass by my hand and tomorrow whats' left are just morsels of the lump I had.

I want to watch a movie as well just to relax before I go back to work tomorrow. I hope what's left is enough for the movie treat.

I'm just waiting for my cousin right now so that I can check it out. I hope that it'll be 10k or more. Just update then you guys later if it was more than enough or just so-so.

This is my Slide Show

This is a slide show I created in Slide. These are my pictures in Friendster. I hope you can add me. My email is naman_ako2003@yahoo.com.

Funny Thoughts To Ponder:

I just saw these questions that will make you think... Crazy as it may seem but really what's the answer? If you want more just click on the link seen at the end of this post.

1. When does it stop being partly cloudy and start being partly sunny?
2. If a baby's leg pops out at 11:59 at birth but his head doesn't come out until 12:01, which day was he born on?
3. Since bread is square, then why is sandwich meat round?
4. Can you daydream at night?
5. Why is it that on a phone or calculator the number five has a little dot on it?
6. If ghosts can walk through walls and glide down stairs, why don't they fall through the floor?
7. Is it legal to travel down a road in reverse, as long as your following the direction of the traffic?
8. When Atheists go to court, do they have to swear on the bible?
9. Why is vanilla ice cream white when vanilla extract is brown?
10. Can animals commit suicide?
11. What do you do when you see an endangered animal that is eating an endangered plant?
12. If a doctor suddenly had a heart attack while doing surgery, would the other doctors work on the doctor or the patient?
13. How can something be "new" and "improved"? if it's new, what was it improving on?
14. Why aren't drapes double sided so it looks nice on the inside and outside of your home?
15. When two people marry, they say, "you may kiss the bride". What do they say if two MEN get married?
16. Why do people say beans beans the magical fruit when beans are vegetables?
17. If laughter is the best medicine, who's the idiot who said they 'died laughing'?
18. If money doesn't grow on trees then why do banks have branches?
19. Why does the Easter bunny carry eggs? Rabbits don't lay eggs.
20. Do siamese twins pay for one ticket or two tickets when they go to movies and concerts?
21. Why does caregiver and caretaker mean the same thing?
22. Can a short person "talk down" to a taller person?
23. If a bald person works as a chef at a restaurant, do they have to wear a hairnet?
24. When lightning strikes the ocean why don't all the fish die?
25. When there's two men who "get married", do they both go to the same bachelor party?
26. If a guy that was about to die in the electric chair had a heart attack should they save him?
27. Why do we sing "Rock a bye baby" to lull a baby to sleep when the song is about putting your baby in a tree and letting the wind crash the cradle on the ground?
28. What is the stage of a reptile when it has eggs in it but they haven't been laid. Are they pregnant?
29. Why do people never say "it's only a game" when they're winning?
30. Why are women and men's shoe sizes different?

Source: http://www.crazythoughts.com/

This sucks...

After spending several hours in creating a post here in my blog, I ended up recreating everything. (*Sigh*) This is not what I intended to do but that's what I finished off with.

I don't know what happened but it seems that something is wrong with my browser or the website. It's not updating the posts I'm publishing here. I thought it was just a fluke but viewing it on another browser made me think that it could have been on the website but then will I compromised not publishing the posts? What I did is deleted the blog I made and created a new one.

I hope this will not happen again because I don't want to do this every time I'm making one. 'Till the next post.

Random Thoughts...

Why is it hard to answer the question "why?".

Ever since, it has always been hard for me. Why? What did I do to deserve all of this things? I just want a life that is peaceful and quiet. A life that when you sleep you don't need to worry about what will happen tomorrow. I never wanted a perfect life but just a normal one. I've been through a lot and I don't know how much more I can bare in this world.

Why when you think that everything seems to fall in place another problem comes along and tears everything to pieces. I've been impaired too much of all this emotional and mental drawbacks in life. People around me just don't see it but deep inside me I just want to scream and release myself from these shackles that bind me from achieving true happiness.

I feel so alone right now. I know I'm surrounded by people that gives me encouragement but why is that I still feel so empty inside? Life is tough and I need a sturdy foundation to endure this. I had that before but what did I do, I let myself go to waste and gave up holding to the only key to my own true happiness. I want to have that back and start being me again.

I think what will make me as me is if I find the purpose of my life and do good at it. What I am today is not what I think I am. This life I have is a life of deception but no one can see it. I know I'll get to a point when my body just gives up and I die, but the question is by that time have I reached the point of true happiness?

Nothing to do

This is the start of creating a medium to express my utmost deepest thoughts. Tonight I'm all alone in this house, just staring at my computer and thinking on what to type in this blog. There's no food in the table and just a pitcher of water to last 'till pay day (2 days more). I don't have money. I'm so poor right now. This is why I hate when salary day falls on a Monday and especially when the first salary comes 2 days earlier which means I need to budget my money for the next 2 days to still have enough money till the next salary comes. I'll end up thirsty and hungry. This is not good.

The nice thing about this, I have 4 days off. I don't need to spend money until Monday. I get to rest for 4 consecutive days before I return to work. Once I'm back to work, my schedule is in the opening shift again which means I can have VGH. VGH means less money but longer bed time. I love to sleep and besides I'm rich (LOL).

I guess this is enough for one day. I'll just make some updates once a week. 'Till my next post then.